One more Integrator Project is about to start. It's been 6 years doing those, with some skipped in the middle, but I must do the two or three missing to be graduated. It's not my first graduation, and those are the most expensive tasks to me: the ones in group, with no one supervising it and possibly firing a non-cooperative member. No, those school projects are the ones we should stick to our responsibilities (and sometimes to the others'), no matter what, to deliver and forget.
As I paint, it seems like a nightmare. I confess the relief that discovering me autist (the actual diagnosis is underway) explains those episodes of social phobia that sometimes come to me. But as our project, life is something I should stick with, with discipline and integrity, to deliver what I should. By "what I should", I don't mean that there is someone supervising it and possibly firing me if I do not cooperate, but I mean I have a mission and values, and I should stick to them and deliver their fruits.
As I paint, it seems like a nightmare. I confess the relief that discovering me autist (the actual diagnosis is underway) explains those episodes of social phobia that sometimes come to me. But as our project, life is something I should stick with, with discipline and integrity, to deliver what I should. By "what I should", I don't mean that there is someone supervising it and possibly firing me if I do not cooperate, but I mean I have a mission and values, and I should stick to them and deliver their fruits.