I might be a little shy or lack the best use of words to converse but I swear it's because I'm absolutely terrified of being judged. So I want to choose my words very very carefully, because I want our conversation and company to hold a safe space. I highly disregard conventional judgements; the ones which make the other person a little less happy about themselves. I have never gotten the point of those. Conventional beauty has always failed me and I failed myself every time I believed I needed to be better. I've always been like- "Oh I am not enough, I could never be that good, hell I'm not even close to being moderately beautiful" and I kid you not, I still do. It stifles me with feelings of so much self hatred, I have always been hard on myself.
Published: Jul 13, 2021